i have so much to do while i am here it seems impossible to do it all in one life and not utterly fail. i have recently begun selling my jewelry on etsy.com and have felt so alive since i began this journey i do not think i could accurately describe it to you all. the friendships as well as love and encouragement have been overwhelmingly amazing and surprising. i feel so independent and alive. is it wrong to feel this way outside of my school/career? or to look forward to grooming my shop more than i do to nannying? what about fluffing my love nest, that is no longer #1 either. i wish i could leave college and travel around the country selling my little lovelies and seeing genuine happiness spread across the faces of my beautiful customers as well as get to feel the warmth of their bodies as we say goodbye. this all plagues me as i push aside yet another assignment where my details are not praised and feedback is minimum and quite unsatisfactory. in the long haul i do realize school will allow me more possibilities (in a sense) than my jewelry making, but i cannot help wanting to fulfill this ever-pressing urge to take flight and abandon this sedentary and under appreciated lifestyle for something much more exotic. for now i will finish the semester and continue to juggle while i pant with desire.
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